soup apra time!!

Things get so crazy here in alaska it makes me want to scream! AAAAAAAAA!!!!!! now that i have that out of my system i cant talk. Alaska is a small place to live, like we really only have a couple different citys here and it take for EVER to get to them its a pain in the freaking ass. plus we also have little villages in the middle of freaking cold ass no where! i live in fairbanks alaska, the most dirty and boring place to live in alaska its so boring we have to drive over 8 hours just to get to a target! how sad is that?? theres three different high schools in the place, two are right next to each other west vally, and hutchison tech. high school, then across town is lathrop and then theres also b.e.s.t and cec which are off branch high school (do at your own pace type things) i used to go to hutch. there is a max of 400 students at that school.... can you imagine the drama?? it was crazy so now i go threw b.e.s.t which is online and i have two classes at lathrop, the sad thing is its so small everyone knows everyone so my drama kind of followed me. RAWR!! how great does this place sound??

im really alone here! an its sad. im not gonna feel sorry for myself or anything like that, i make the best out of being somewhere i hate and having no one to talk to. i have friends but no i will not talk to them about my life because here if you tell someone, anyone anything about you or something you do not want people to know everyone finds out. i once told my friend at hutch something and it turned out she new someone at lathrop who knows one of my oldest friends at west vally and the thing got soooo truned around by the time my friend at west texted me asking if it was true i had to have him explain what in the world he was talking about.

high school sucks!! im a jr and im trying my best to graduate this year by going online so i can get out of this fucking hell hole!! i hate it here. to much drama and the guy to girl ratio is so bad, there is not enough girls for all these guys so right now im dating my fiance we have been together almost 2 years now and about 5 other guys "love" or like me. grrrr can you imagine how mad my fiance gets that i see these boys everyday at school? when hes graduated and not at school at all? god my life is really like a freaking soup apra! crazy shit.!!