soup apra time!!

Things get so crazy here in alaska it makes me want to scream! AAAAAAAAA!!!!!! now that i have that out of my system i cant talk. Alaska is a small place to live, like we really only have a couple different citys here and it take for EVER to get to them its a pain in the freaking ass. plus we also have little villages in the middle of freaking cold ass no where! i live in fairbanks alaska, the most dirty and boring place to live in alaska its so boring we have to drive over 8 hours just to get to a target! how sad is that?? theres three different high schools in the place, two are right next to each other west vally, and hutchison tech. high school, then across town is lathrop and then theres also b.e.s.t and cec which are off branch high school (do at your own pace type things) i used to go to hutch. there is a max of 400 students at that school.... can you imagine the drama?? it was crazy so now i go threw b.e.s.t which is online and i have two classes at lathrop, the sad thing is its so small everyone knows everyone so my drama kind of followed me. RAWR!! how great does this place sound??

im really alone here! an its sad. im not gonna feel sorry for myself or anything like that, i make the best out of being somewhere i hate and having no one to talk to. i have friends but no i will not talk to them about my life because here if you tell someone, anyone anything about you or something you do not want people to know everyone finds out. i once told my friend at hutch something and it turned out she new someone at lathrop who knows one of my oldest friends at west vally and the thing got soooo truned around by the time my friend at west texted me asking if it was true i had to have him explain what in the world he was talking about.

high school sucks!! im a jr and im trying my best to graduate this year by going online so i can get out of this fucking hell hole!! i hate it here. to much drama and the guy to girl ratio is so bad, there is not enough girls for all these guys so right now im dating my fiance we have been together almost 2 years now and about 5 other guys "love" or like me. grrrr can you imagine how mad my fiance gets that i see these boys everyday at school? when hes graduated and not at school at all? god my life is really like a freaking soup apra! crazy shit.!!

New Fad.

okay im not here to keep you up to date on new fashion or anything like that but i have seen some crazy things being worn. I get the hello kitty, girr, big sunglasses, skinny jeans, bright colors, with the tutu looks, and the crazy make up but what in the word is with the NOT matching?? i wear all the crazy hello kitty stuff and only wear skinny jeans and everything i listened above with jewlery that MATCHES my outfit, but i saw this girl wearing a black and purple skirt and shirt thing from hot topic with those bright green and black checkered heals. how in the world does that even come to match in any way?

People are really weird these days, labling people off what they wear or like. why is it so importanat to give someone a name to fall under? i get called something different everyday scene kid, prep, emo, tom boy.... its crazy. why do i have to labled? obviously i dont fall under any of these. i have my own style, so does eveyone else.

labling people isn't kewl. i hate how people think we all have to be known as something, as if you calling me an emo means i cant be friends with the girls who wear hollister... i wear hollister and hottopic all at once what does that make me? a person can not be described by the kinds of clothes they wear, or the color of there hair... mines black with a bunch of bright highlights(my picture is old i have recently changed my hair) things are so different now, why be like everyone else? why go by a name that may not be you? i mean theres some people that dont even match there clothes are we going to end up giving them a lable as well? how lame would that be? do we have that many problems with people being different?

i would love you hear thoughts on this thank you.

HELLO!

i have made one of these before but i lost my info, so i plan to make it the same as the other one or as close as i can. there for i do not want comments about me being a copy cat cuz um....the person im "coping" is ME!!!!! thats all i have to say i will be putting up my old posts they will have the dates and everything or when i wrote them it will be right under this. i have made sure that i wont be able to lose my info now(: YAY ME!! haha i have saved all the info on to my e-mail so that i will not be able to lose it...THANK GOD! well here are my old post they are SUPER old well to me they are.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Done!

I am done with stupid people that bring more drama and crap then anything else. Im just done with people who lie and try to get what they want by lieing. They just need to grow up. Theres this girl and she was my only friend well i thought she was tell she started lieing saying she was pregnant and losing the babys she has done it three times now, she does it to get sympothy she is even saying shes been raped now. I dont believe a word that comes out of her mouth anymore. Shes a lier, i think she is one of those people who confinces them selves that her lies are true and that they have really happened to make her life seem more exciting. Its so dumb I HATE IT! I HATE HER! This is all so dumb and im done.

Im over the high school crap, i have get pay back on that bitch. Its stupid crap that doesnt need to be going on expachly now when one of my ex bfs and a dear friend to alot of poeple is in acoma and shes starting all this stuff and saying there dating, hes in acoma he cant talk!! Your not dating!! POEPLE ARE SO STUPID!!!!

IM DONE!!

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Monday, August 31, 2009

DUMB!

Ok so i had this friend, i thought we were best friends she was the only one i had after i gave up my other backstabing friends and well now im not sure i want her as my friend. She keeps saying she is pregnant but is always having a miss carage, but none of the dates match up. The most resent was today, she said a week ago that she was 3 months along but not even three months ago she said she had a miss carage with this guys baby who wasnt her boyfriend but now she is three months pregnant with her boyfriends baby? When today she said she was a month along and was having a girl when she had her miss carage yesterday, first of all you had a miss carage a month not even a month before school started you were texting me at the time and wouldnt go to the hospital, second you say first that your three months along and its your boyfriends baby when you and your boyfriend didnt even have sex tell two weeks after your "miss carage", third no one can tell the sex of a baby one month in. I have found out that this girl is a lier and the fact that i am supposed to be her best friend sbut she tells the girl who is living with me that she is "pregnant" before she tells me and also tells a guy that she just met, does that sound like a best friend plus she hasnt even talk to me in two weeks and i have to hear about the miss carage from the girl who is living with me. I really dont understand if she is trying to push me away by being best friends with the one person who has hurt me A LOT and also trying to hook up with my ex-boyfriend who all girls know friends dont date there friends exs no matter if they have feelings for them or not. Im trying to be here and be understanding but how can you be here for someone who chooses people they "hate" over there best friend?

Maybe i never was her friend at all, maybe i was like one of those guys to her that she could date mess with and then just throw away? Well im not a guy and im not someone that she can walk all over! She will learn that walking all over poeple will get you no where, expashaly people like me.

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Friday, August 28, 2009

One Friends!

I have learned that friends are not the best thing in the world to have. You talk to them about something that is really important that you dont want others to know and they go and tell other people. So i only have one true friend, i am hapi with that more hapi then i have ever been. I do have people that i hang out with but i do not talk to them about stuff that is going on in my life, all they will do is tell there friends or people that they know. I wont lie i have many time in a convo acadintly told someone somthing that a person didnt want me to tell because it went along with what we were talking about, but most poeple do it just to talk about that person. Its not right at all. Im not saying that telling by acsadint is any better but at least you werent doing it to hurt the person. I am hapi with just having one person to talk to because i have figured out that even your best friends will trun on you and not talk to you about anything.

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

;;crappy;;

I just wrote a hole bunch of stuff and then i decided to delete it all. It had nothing to do with informing people about anything. Honestly life is hard and it sucks! For girls i think it is even harder because we like to put each other down way more and we know what will hurt someone and we use that agenst them. Thats not right or kewl in any way. I mean would you like to get told to go kill your self by someone that you thought was a friend? I know i didnt. Its not kewl and the things us girls say to and about each other tells guys that they can say it and do it to us to. Why do you think we get called sluts and whores when guys get hi fived for banging a girl? Because we call each other thoughs names! Why do you think guys think they cant put there hands on us? because us girls do it all the time to each other as jokes but really its just telling guys yeha its ok to do this and you dont even have to ask or expact anything other then that i will like it. NO thats NOT right!!!! Girls have the same rights as guys so why do us girls treat guys different then we treat girls? we treat girls like they are lower then us if they are prettyer then us. We call them names or say they are so full of them selves if they are prettyer then us. I dont do this i know how it feels when as soon as i walk into the school girls are already talking about me but they dont even know my name yet, they just say "have you herd about that new girls? she is such a slut." I get that everytime i move and its not right, they dont even know me they took one look at me saw that i was better then them and thought that they could put me down to make them selves look better, but what they didnt know is that i knew i was better them because i dont do crap like that and i know who i am and what i can do! I know how to stand up for myself which i did. I know that no matter what anyone says about me i know whats true and if people want to believe whats being said then fine i didnt need that person as a friend anyways, i dont need someone that thick! I have learned that waiting to make friends after seeing what they are really like is the best thing in the world to do, because making a friend right off and telling them stuff about you is the worst thing you can do because in a week it will be all over the place. Picking your friends wissly is the best thing anyone can do you dont watn all you business out to the world because you made a really bad friend like i did, i mean friends.

You just need to know who you are and never let anyone stand in your way or walk all over you. I live by this one song and its meaning its by: jimmy eat world - the middle. Its a good song if you are still trying to find yourself and are worried about losing friends. Well i think that is all i need to say write now.

Posted by /Hannaaaah;;Levityyyy::. at 2:49 PM 0 comments

Long time

It has been awhile since i have posted anything i kind of lost my info. /= I am back now though. (: A lot have things have changed since the last time i have been on here. I have found myself more and have relized that certain people are not worth my time or energy. I am a new person that takes care of her self and is getting healthy! I do only have a couple of friends now but i like it that way its a lot less drama.

I do have some stuff to tell all you kids going into the higher grades like middle school and high school. Do not get to close with anyone, keep your secrets as much as you can, keep other peoples secrets and do not be afraid to tell people the truth about how feel, and do not ever let someone tell you what to do or let them walk all over you. You are in charge of your life no one else is.

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Whats Love??

Love isn't something anyone can really explain. Its something that you feel deep down...but how do you know what love really is?

You will know when you love someone. You will feel it deep down.

It's when you can't go 10mins with out talking to them...

When you miss them right after goodbyes are said...

When no matter how far away you are from them you still want them right next to you....

Love is the butterflies you get when you look at the special someone...

When you can tell in there eyes that there the one!

Love is the best thing in the world!!

xXxDon't let it pass you byxXx

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

Whats with BACKSTABERS!!

Ok so i though that i had this really good friend...tell she told someone something that i didnt want her to tell!

Maybe i should have looked closer before picking her to be my friend that was dumb on my part!!

She didnt even ask if it was ok...or if the person she was telling already knew!(which she didnt!) I talked to her about it since this isnt the first time she has done something like this and it really got on my nervous!

I mean how can a person you think you trust do that to you??

you dont tell there secrets why should they tell yours?? Its not right!!

She has been doing it to everyone and everyone is so tired of it....some of them have tried to talk to her about it but it never works!! She doesnt understand that she is becoming a big problem!!

Its now to the point where she will have no friends!! She called us all sluts on myspace when really its her that the slut....none of us give head to a guy just to drive his truck for 15mins. so maybe she needs to rethink what it is she is doing!

p.s. i find this blog very funny! me and the girl had to have a sit down meeting so it was her me her mom and my mom. they new about this blog post and asked "can you delete the blog about me" but the hole time she was sitting there saying she didnt give head to the guy...if she didnt do it then how did she know this is about her? i mean thats the only part that singles anyone out. PEOPLE ARE STUPID lol

xXxPICK UR FRIENDS SMART! NOT DUMB LIKE I DID!xXx

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